i dont think ive ever felt this uninspired before, fashion is my thing my go to, i am a fashion designer ? i feel i should change that statement to 'i was a wannabe fashion designer', university is honestly the most uninspiring depressing place to be where your forced to be individual but at the same time do exactly what they want you to do so it was never and will never be your design in the first place. I miss painting and printing and getting in a mess, i miss how this was and im sat here willing myself to make a skirt willing myself to be excited and i just cant muster up the strength, my boyfriend got an opportunity for work experience this week at a theatre and ive never felt more of a slap in the face. Not by him but by life, why am i not doing this, i have always been going somewhere always passionate so how did our roles become so reversed, how am i still sat in the same position as i was when i was 16, yet without a talent, i never thought i would question myself i believe arrogantly i was the best thing that would be happening to fashion and looking through my old work i was good, i was excited i wanted to do this and now ? im not sure, i really dont know, i want time out, i want to feel inspired and talented enough to pick up the fabric and make a skirt..